I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough to make everyone see your value as I did. I should have insisted on it. Although I doubt you'd want your face on a blimp, it should've been offered out of a sign of respect. Everything given to me should have been equally yours. I regret not pushing back harder on prejudice, theirs and mine. I wasn't as good a friend as I thought.
You know that recognition never mattered to me. All I ever wanted to do was bring Hextech to the Undercity, and you've never treated me as anything less than an equal.
Listen, if I couldn't advocate strongly enough for my own partner, I wasn't going to advocate strongly enough for the Undercity. I thought when I became a Councilor I would use my power to do all the things we wanted, but I ended up enforcing the us vs. them mindset. I didn't make things better, I made it better for Piltover, and worse for the Undercity.
I'm not saying this because I want you to tell me it's okay or argue my case for me. I heard you when you said I am Piltover, and I was given opportunity that I squandered. This is not self-loathing or self-pity talking, it's awareness. I can't fix what I did there from here, but I hope that being more aware of my flaws will keep me from making the same choices.
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Date: 2022-06-15 04:30 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I didn't try hard enough to make everyone see your value as I did. I should have insisted on it. Although I doubt you'd want your face on a blimp, it should've been offered out of a sign of respect. Everything given to me should have been equally yours. I regret not pushing back harder on prejudice, theirs and mine. I wasn't as good a friend as I thought.
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Date: 2022-06-15 06:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-06-15 07:01 pm (UTC)I'm not saying this because I want you to tell me it's okay or argue my case for me. I heard you when you said I am Piltover, and I was given opportunity that I squandered. This is not self-loathing or self-pity talking, it's awareness. I can't fix what I did there from here, but I hope that being more aware of my flaws will keep me from making the same choices.
And if none of this matters to you, that's okay.
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Date: 2022-06-15 07:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-06-15 07:32 pm (UTC)I'm sorry I lied to you. It doesn't matter why I did it. I'll do my best to earn your trust again.
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Date: 2022-06-15 08:00 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-06-15 08:07 pm (UTC)Yes, of course. Just message me when you're headed in and I'll be there.