We've been in each other's pockets for seven years, I think I would have known if you had other friends.
[ Viktor is private so possibly he could 'hide' friends but Jayce doubts that. He doesn't know if he had friends before him, he just knows that once they had each other, that was more or less it for them. And considering Jayce's three 'friends' includes his sister figure and his lover, it's not as if he's sought out many other connections either.
Jayce is insecure, this is something they are aware of. He is confident to a point, but he's plagued by doubts and uncertainty, and never more so now that he feels out of control. It's not Viktor's problem, but he's floundering a bit. He'll get there, once he balances out and gets his focuses all set up. His hands move to start buttoning up his shirt. ]
It's important you know that I'm really glad you have friends, you've always deserved more recognition and attention than you were given. I've believed that from day one. They're really good people. I'm just ... [ He waves a hand, he does that a lot while talking and trying to get out what he's thinking. ] Having more time to process everything that happened recently. It's bringing a lot of feelings up.
[ They have more time to sit in their feelings, or at least Jayce does, and that isn't a bad thing necessarily, it just might have some growing pains now that he's forced to sit down and cope with things that he was pushing off. Like his feelings about Viktor's illness and his terror of losing him. And other things he hasn't communicated yet, because he really is sort of reacting as he goes. ]
Even if I seemed distant, I was obsessed with finding a way to save your life, I thought about it constantly. I didn't want to burden you with my fear until I had a solution or any helpful ideas.
[ He glances over at Viktor, bumping his shoulder gently, looking at that beloved set of details in his face Jayce has stared at for years. ]
We'll do it here. I know we will. I feel it in my gut.
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Date: 2022-04-30 05:03 am (UTC)[ Viktor is private so possibly he could 'hide' friends but Jayce doubts that. He doesn't know if he had friends before him, he just knows that once they had each other, that was more or less it for them. And considering Jayce's three 'friends' includes his sister figure and his lover, it's not as if he's sought out many other connections either.
Jayce is insecure, this is something they are aware of. He is confident to a point, but he's plagued by doubts and uncertainty, and never more so now that he feels out of control. It's not Viktor's problem, but he's floundering a bit. He'll get there, once he balances out and gets his focuses all set up. His hands move to start buttoning up his shirt. ]
It's important you know that I'm really glad you have friends, you've always deserved more recognition and attention than you were given. I've believed that from day one. They're really good people. I'm just ... [ He waves a hand, he does that a lot while talking and trying to get out what he's thinking. ] Having more time to process everything that happened recently. It's bringing a lot of feelings up.
[ They have more time to sit in their feelings, or at least Jayce does, and that isn't a bad thing necessarily, it just might have some growing pains now that he's forced to sit down and cope with things that he was pushing off. Like his feelings about Viktor's illness and his terror of losing him. And other things he hasn't communicated yet, because he really is sort of reacting as he goes. ]
Even if I seemed distant, I was obsessed with finding a way to save your life, I thought about it constantly. I didn't want to burden you with my fear until I had a solution or any helpful ideas.
[ He glances over at Viktor, bumping his shoulder gently, looking at that beloved set of details in his face Jayce has stared at for years. ]
We'll do it here. I know we will. I feel it in my gut.