[ While Jayce obviously swallows every bit of physical affection up, verbal confirmation is also very helpful. He doesn't really like it about himself, that his insecurities need to be soothed, but Viktor knows him well. It won't take much now that he's being fed regular love and support. Maybe one of these days he won't even dwell in his anxieties and simply brush them off.
Jayce sighs when Viktor slides his arms around him and he gives in, leaning in closer, allowing more of his weight to sink onto Viktor. He is tall so he cradles his hips between Viktor's legs so he can settle there easier. Viktor's holding onto Jayce tightly which is exactly what he likes, nosing into Viktor's hair when he nestles into his neck. Jayce shudders from Viktor's words as the emotional impact of them, the reassurance it gives him, is powerful. Jayce, who often apologizes for being too intense, who spent years trying to curb his enthusiasm.
It is okay for him to still do that in certain cases, he knows who can handle it and who can't, but with his partner, it is important that Viktor not only accepts it, but he actually likes that about him. ]
You're the only person who could have all of me.
[ Why would Jayce need to go looking elsewhere if he could have Viktor? He so easily slots into everything Jayce has ever looked for. No one sees him for who he is. He thinks maybe that's why Viktor has found it in his heart to move past what happened; he knows Jayce is terribly flawed, but he hasn't given up on him yet. ]
I know when I realized I was in love with you. It was right after the Hexgates launched, we had finished something incredible, we were flushed with success. Anyone else would have considered that a big success and celebrated it, maybe taken a few days off.
[ They did work around the clock and basically didn't live in any other way but the project. It was sometimes the worst thing in his life, but usually the best thing. And when they made it happen, when it was launched, Jayce felt completely at peace for a few moments. Until he looked at his partner. ]
You smiled at me and said okay, good, let's get started on the next project.
[ Jayce laughs into Viktor's hair and nuzzles. This is what he means by he knew for years, although he never did anything about it.]
I literally felt weak in the knees with how much I wanted you.
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Jayce sighs when Viktor slides his arms around him and he gives in, leaning in closer, allowing more of his weight to sink onto Viktor. He is tall so he cradles his hips between Viktor's legs so he can settle there easier. Viktor's holding onto Jayce tightly which is exactly what he likes, nosing into Viktor's hair when he nestles into his neck. Jayce shudders from Viktor's words as the emotional impact of them, the reassurance it gives him, is powerful. Jayce, who often apologizes for being too intense, who spent years trying to curb his enthusiasm.
It is okay for him to still do that in certain cases, he knows who can handle it and who can't, but with his partner, it is important that Viktor not only accepts it, but he actually likes that about him. ]
You're the only person who could have all of me.
[ Why would Jayce need to go looking elsewhere if he could have Viktor? He so easily slots into everything Jayce has ever looked for. No one sees him for who he is. He thinks maybe that's why Viktor has found it in his heart to move past what happened; he knows Jayce is terribly flawed, but he hasn't given up on him yet. ]
I know when I realized I was in love with you. It was right after the Hexgates launched, we had finished something incredible, we were flushed with success. Anyone else would have considered that a big success and celebrated it, maybe taken a few days off.
[ They did work around the clock and basically didn't live in any other way but the project. It was sometimes the worst thing in his life, but usually the best thing. And when they made it happen, when it was launched, Jayce felt completely at peace for a few moments. Until he looked at his partner. ]
You smiled at me and said okay, good, let's get started on the next project.
[ Jayce laughs into Viktor's hair and nuzzles. This is what he means by he knew for years, although he never did anything about it.]
I literally felt weak in the knees with how much I wanted you.