Is it bad I barely think of life before Hextech? I guess that makes me a workaholic. But that doesn't mean I should assume you think the same way.
[ Jayce had a life too, technically a pretty engaging one, he's talked to Viktor about the mage, about his time in the desert, about a lot of his past, but it was always about his way to Hextech. His dream. And then when he and Viktor succeeded, that was everything. So apparently he's tunnel-visioned not only his own life, but Viktor's too. He can be a real oblivious idiot, something they both know. He's caught up in his own drama yet again.
Usually one unexpected touch from Viktor is a meal he could feed on for months, the cheek would be enough for a year typically, but he keeps surprising him. He's a starving man and so Viktor's attempts to show him comfort work in a way nothing else really could. Jayce often shows his affection and comfort in touches to the arms, back, anything Viktor would let him, but he's never expected it back or asked for it.
He can't help but lean into it, like a flower toward the sun, but Jayce too is smart, careful not to look at him, knowing doing so would put them too close. He has to focus on what he can ask for or he can accept. Instead of turning, he simply rests his head to the side, briefly leaning their heads together, still within boundaries while taking in every bit of that affection.]
I'm sorry you have to comfort me when it's something you're going through. But I appreciate it all the same. There are no distractions here, nothing keeping us from finding the solution together.
[ Jayce knows he's the one who was distracted, but he's apologized, and they didn't end up doing it together like they should have, because of both of them. That was there, when there was just too much going on and dividing them. They don't have that here. They have each other the way they should have always. In a way this is a blessing in disguise. ]
I won't lose you.
[ Jayce says it in the way he does most things when he is firm and determined and that passion within him seems to never be able to fade. He says it like he means it, like damn anything that tries to get in his way. He will fight tooth and nail to finish his goal. ]
I want us to still be bickering over equations when we've got silver in our hair and you rolling your eyes at me until we both need reading glasses.
[ Jayce has always seen them as older men together; maybe not that old, but a reasonable lifetime. Distinguished. Still brilliant but maybe grown out of some of their youthful issues. ]
But ... that's still what I want. What do you want?
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Date: 2022-05-01 04:39 am (UTC)[ Jayce had a life too, technically a pretty engaging one, he's talked to Viktor about the mage, about his time in the desert, about a lot of his past, but it was always about his way to Hextech. His dream. And then when he and Viktor succeeded, that was everything. So apparently he's tunnel-visioned not only his own life, but Viktor's too. He can be a real oblivious idiot, something they both know. He's caught up in his own drama yet again.
Usually one unexpected touch from Viktor is a meal he could feed on for months, the cheek would be enough for a year typically, but he keeps surprising him. He's a starving man and so Viktor's attempts to show him comfort work in a way nothing else really could. Jayce often shows his affection and comfort in touches to the arms, back, anything Viktor would let him, but he's never expected it back or asked for it.
He can't help but lean into it, like a flower toward the sun, but Jayce too is smart, careful not to look at him, knowing doing so would put them too close. He has to focus on what he can ask for or he can accept. Instead of turning, he simply rests his head to the side, briefly leaning their heads together, still within boundaries while taking in every bit of that affection.]
I'm sorry you have to comfort me when it's something you're going through. But I appreciate it all the same. There are no distractions here, nothing keeping us from finding the solution together.
[ Jayce knows he's the one who was distracted, but he's apologized, and they didn't end up doing it together like they should have, because of both of them. That was there, when there was just too much going on and dividing them. They don't have that here. They have each other the way they should have always. In a way this is a blessing in disguise. ]
I won't lose you.
[ Jayce says it in the way he does most things when he is firm and determined and that passion within him seems to never be able to fade. He says it like he means it, like damn anything that tries to get in his way. He will fight tooth and nail to finish his goal. ]
I want us to still be bickering over equations when we've got silver in our hair and you rolling your eyes at me until we both need reading glasses.
[ Jayce has always seen them as older men together; maybe not that old, but a reasonable lifetime. Distinguished. Still brilliant but maybe grown out of some of their youthful issues. ]
But ... that's still what I want. What do you want?