[ Jayce has spent years making himself not kiss Viktor, so he is pretty practiced at it, but it's different when Viktor is the one who closed the space between them like that. Viktor's touches have meaning and he is trying not to read too much into it, for now. They still have some stuff to work out, and Viktor's life to save. But he will definitely remember the feel of those long fingers caressing across his cheek, soft and affectionate.
He considers whether to get them walking or not, and instead decides to come over and sit on the other side of the bench. Jayce rubs a hand across his heavy eyebrows, shrugging. ]
Alright, I'm upset. I'm hurt and devastated. It's still new to me. I didn't exactly have the time to come to terms with anything, everything was moving so fast.
[ That's probably the truest part of all of this. That a lot happened to them in a short amount of time, and Jayce hasn't had the time to actually react to it let alone come to any healthy state of mind on the issue. He thought the worst thing would be juggling being a scientist and a politician. He's not sure he's cut out for a complicated life, but it is what was handed to him, and he also never let things be. The city of progress. The man of progress.
Viktor doesn't even know how much just a day or so changed everything else too, he saw the terrible effect on his own health, but that's only part of the puzzle. It's a lot. And Viktor's running out of time, but he isn't to that level yet. They still have time. ]
We can't change what happened.
[ If he could, he would. He would not have been a dick on that bridge, he would have paid more attention to Viktor's struggles instead of trying to control everything on his end, and letting his emotions get the better of him. ]
I'm not going to stop you from experimenting on yourself, I'm going to help you do it safely and with backup. We're going to find a way to save your life.
[ He is unable to accept any other options. He doesn't care what Viktor said in that memory, maybe at that point in time it was the only way. They are in a new situation here, he is back to having that aggressive sense of hope and desperation. ]
But like you said, you didn't consider the repercussions of your actions and what it would mean for me. The trade-off of having people who love you is you have to consider their feelings. I hope you'll keep that in mind going forward.
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He considers whether to get them walking or not, and instead decides to come over and sit on the other side of the bench. Jayce rubs a hand across his heavy eyebrows, shrugging. ]
Alright, I'm upset. I'm hurt and devastated. It's still new to me. I didn't exactly have the time to come to terms with anything, everything was moving so fast.
[ That's probably the truest part of all of this. That a lot happened to them in a short amount of time, and Jayce hasn't had the time to actually react to it let alone come to any healthy state of mind on the issue. He thought the worst thing would be juggling being a scientist and a politician. He's not sure he's cut out for a complicated life, but it is what was handed to him, and he also never let things be. The city of progress. The man of progress.
Viktor doesn't even know how much just a day or so changed everything else too, he saw the terrible effect on his own health, but that's only part of the puzzle. It's a lot. And Viktor's running out of time, but he isn't to that level yet. They still have time. ]
We can't change what happened.
[ If he could, he would. He would not have been a dick on that bridge, he would have paid more attention to Viktor's struggles instead of trying to control everything on his end, and letting his emotions get the better of him. ]
I'm not going to stop you from experimenting on yourself, I'm going to help you do it safely and with backup. We're going to find a way to save your life.
[ He is unable to accept any other options. He doesn't care what Viktor said in that memory, maybe at that point in time it was the only way. They are in a new situation here, he is back to having that aggressive sense of hope and desperation. ]
But like you said, you didn't consider the repercussions of your actions and what it would mean for me. The trade-off of having people who love you is you have to consider their feelings. I hope you'll keep that in mind going forward.