Jayce's hair is difficult to mess up but he likes when Viktor tries. He also just likes every comforting gesture between them. He too knows that Viktor having to rely on him to survive is a double-edged sword. He will never be sorry about it, it's given them precious time to finish the cure and also time for them to be together, but he knows his prideful lover doesn't like relying on anyone. It's temporary.
Jayce is not so insecure as to want to keep being a crutch for Viktor though. He doesn't want to be needed this way forever, for both of their sakes. But it is worth it. Every moment of this is worth it. He is reminded of that all over again when Viktor is in his arms, telling him the truth and expressing himself rather than hiding it away. That means just as much.
The only reason Jayce fears it is because they can stopgap this longer, making their time together longer. Once they do the surgery, once the Hexcore is finished, that can be it. It's do or die, literally. Viktor's life will be in their hands for real. That's what he is afraid of, but he won't let that hold them back either.
"I will be happy to. You'll have to live with all your new friends wanting to visit too." Jayce smiles and cups Viktor's face, kissing him sweetly. "I'll read you a non-academic book for once. Maybe something fiction." This means that Viktor still wants him around after being cured. Jayce already knew that, as his partner at least, but sometimes he has insecurities. He holds them within himself for now.
"You're starting to think a little bit about after." Jayce points out, softly. Yes, it's just the notebooks, and the reading to him, but it's something.
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Date: 2022-09-26 02:13 am (UTC)Jayce is not so insecure as to want to keep being a crutch for Viktor though. He doesn't want to be needed this way forever, for both of their sakes. But it is worth it. Every moment of this is worth it. He is reminded of that all over again when Viktor is in his arms, telling him the truth and expressing himself rather than hiding it away. That means just as much.
The only reason Jayce fears it is because they can stopgap this longer, making their time together longer. Once they do the surgery, once the Hexcore is finished, that can be it. It's do or die, literally. Viktor's life will be in their hands for real. That's what he is afraid of, but he won't let that hold them back either.
"I will be happy to. You'll have to live with all your new friends wanting to visit too." Jayce smiles and cups Viktor's face, kissing him sweetly. "I'll read you a non-academic book for once. Maybe something fiction." This means that Viktor still wants him around after being cured. Jayce already knew that, as his partner at least, but sometimes he has insecurities. He holds them within himself for now.
"You're starting to think a little bit about after." Jayce points out, softly. Yes, it's just the notebooks, and the reading to him, but it's something.