Viktor pulls both of his hands through Jayce's pristine hair, somehow un-mussed even as he fretted in the room for the last hour. He can't decide if it's to reassure Jayce or to comfort himself. Maybe a little of both. He knows that relying on Jayce for healing magic--the fact that he's entirely reliant on Jayce to keep himself alive--is not an ideal situation, and is probably coloring their relationship much more than he'd like, but he's more-or-less resigned himself to this. It's what it is, for now. All they can do is hope that their plan works, and move forward from there.
"More afraid of what will happen if we don't try."
That's sincere. Viktor has made it clear he doesn't want to give up, not yet, but if they don't do anything , he's resigning himself to wasting away. Slowly becoming unable to work, body no longer able to keep up with his mind. Jayce's healing magic has made it possible for him to continue their projects, to have enough stamina to get through the day, to mitigate his chronic pain. It's more than just time. It means more to him than he can ever express.
"It will be no different than my other surgeries." The one thing he couldn't exactly hide, in all the years of his declining health. Recovery periods are often immutable. "You'll need to bring me all my notebooks. I might even make you read to me."
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Viktor pulls both of his hands through Jayce's pristine hair, somehow un-mussed even as he fretted in the room for the last hour. He can't decide if it's to reassure Jayce or to comfort himself. Maybe a little of both. He knows that relying on Jayce for healing magic--the fact that he's entirely reliant on Jayce to keep himself alive--is not an ideal situation, and is probably coloring their relationship much more than he'd like, but he's more-or-less resigned himself to this. It's what it is, for now. All they can do is hope that their plan works, and move forward from there.
"More afraid of what will happen if we don't try."
That's sincere. Viktor has made it clear he doesn't want to give up, not yet, but if they don't do anything , he's resigning himself to wasting away. Slowly becoming unable to work, body no longer able to keep up with his mind. Jayce's healing magic has made it possible for him to continue their projects, to have enough stamina to get through the day, to mitigate his chronic pain. It's more than just time. It means more to him than he can ever express.
"It will be no different than my other surgeries." The one thing he couldn't exactly hide, in all the years of his declining health. Recovery periods are often immutable. "You'll need to bring me all my notebooks. I might even make you read to me."